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Now on with the post...
Sometimes (OK, a lot of times) when you're a mama you feel emptied.
Not empty...there's obviously a lot of love going around - love from my husband, love and snuggles from my baby girl, so I feel far from empty, but rather emptied. The job of a mama is never-ending and everyone is taking a little piece...physically and emotionally. There are meals to make, errands to run, laundry to do, bedtime routines to follow through with. Then add to that teething drama, everyday marriage challenges, blog writing, freelance styling and it's often more than a bit overwhelming. I get so busy doing, doing, doing and going, going, going that I forget to take time for the most important thing in my life - my relationship with Jesus.
Spending time praying and reading my Bible falls by the wayside when there are so many other things that seem more important. But, the other night while I was at coffee with my friend Echo lamenting my feelings of being overwhelmed. She offered a listening ear and then asked me how much time I'd spent praying. Answer: not a lot. I have so much going on in my head these days that it's hard to stay focused during a prayer and I told her this. She encouraged me to try to take some time and journal my prayers.
So. I did.
Armed with some pretty new notebooks and pens I headed out to a coffee shop while my mother-in-law watched Fern and I wrote out what was in my heart and left it all there on those pages for Jesus. I left that coffee shop feeling refreshed and renewed and ridiculous that I didn't do this sooner.
It's amazing how God can work in my heart when I leave room for him.